I do not like Sharing!

Ariella will be 3 come October 26th of this year & I have always went above and beyond to keep the peace with her father & that side of her family. Until recently that is. I took him to court last month for Child support, to establish my custody rights, along with setting up standard visitation through the courts. Basically so that he would have to follow the rules and he wouldn't be able to try to take her from me or stop paying the agreed amount that we had decided on with child support after she was born.

After going to court we came to a mediation & the papers are due to be signed and filled any day now. But as of the first of August he keeps wanting to switch his weekends or never coming in when he is supposed to & then expecting me to switch weekends with him. Because he went from getting paid ever week to every other weekend he thinks that I should change the entire visitation schedule to accommodate his schedule.

So tomorrow i'm calling my lawyer and discussing with her what should be done now about the visitation, I don't want to change it on my own with out talking to her because i'm afraid it will then look like I don't care about my time with Ariella. 

All I want is what is best for Ariella. For her to get the time she deserves with her father & baby brother. But I also want her Father to make her more of a priority in his life instead of an obligation. 

She deserves more dedicated time with him & I feel that even on the weekends that he comes in he doesn't dedicate that time to just time with him & Ari or him, Ari & her baby brother.  

It's hard for me to stand up to him & not try to keep the peace, I want us all to get along and be civil but in the process of doing that they treat me as if I am a push over. They make me feel like i'm keeping Ariella from them and then I feel guilty even though I am not doing anything wrong & I give in. So now that we have the lawyers involved I feel that it is important to run all the big decisions such as changing the schedule to fit his needs by her.

Oh, why cant I just keep her home with me all the time! I don't want to share anymore :(